Thursday, 25 October 2012

I want it to be " Simple "


       Yes, I like things to be simple and certainly everyone does.It's not out of choice that I think of both sides of an argument.That's what I am , everything is personal and emotional for me and that's why my point of view looks complicated but it's not.Because for me life is all about love , friends are family.Lies scare me to death, they are like ghosts but we all have skeletons in our closets.


      I need to meet people and make friends but I don't need to be emotionally attached to them, how is that possible..??People get married without even knowing if they love each other or not , without even knowing that they may fall out of love later, or there may be no chance for them fall in love at all.


      My best frend asked why do I make things complicated.At this point of life I should be clear about what I think , or about how I see the world but I am not.I see people living under the same roof top who hate each other to the core.I see people living life together coz they have no other option.And this is nothing new, but it took me a while to see this.

    It is really really difficult to believe that life is not always about love , you , your comfort zones , your needs , your choices , your likes or dislikes.The ones who are able to sustain life with a smile on their faces while all the odds of the life are standing right infront of them, are real survivors, fighters , warriors and those are the ones who always get a second chance in life.

    I think and think and I think that reach nowhere by thinking and hence my frend says that I make things complicated.I wish things to be simple too.for me life was categorized in gud and bad ,or  happy and sad , or white  and black.I understands that everything doesn't have to be at extremes  there are middle points.I have accepted that theoretically , have seen people choosing the middle points.It's just I haven't been able to implement that in " my life ".

  It is going to be a slow process for me and  I think I will be able to pull it out.May be with age I might actually accept it and implement it , And I am willing to give it a shot and try to make things simple.

     

     

Wednesday, 24 October 2012

RAVANAYANA

  






    It was a great read.We all know about Rama and Ravana and the way it has been put by " Anand Neelakantan " is amazing.No matter how good the story is , a great story teller makes it even more interesting.I am not very much into mythology , all the  Ramayana I know is from the movies which gives us enough to understand that Dharma always wins over Adharma.

   He has written something really interesting stuff in here



QUOTING   "  ANAND NEELAKANTAN  "



Steadfast spouse
It will be interesting to ask this simple question. Had Ravana won the final war instead of Rama, would our concept of right and wrong have undergone any change?
Maybe, the poets would have told us that Ravana followed the Dharma to the last word. History is always written by the victors. His abduction of Sita might have been justified as a revenge for mutilation of his sister by Lakshmana. When Rama could not accept his wife without a test of purity by fire, Ravana had stood by his wife in a much more serious circumstance.
Valmiki Ramayana speaks about an incident when Angada and other vanaras entered Ravana’s harem and molested Mandodari. This was done as a war strategy to prevent Ravana from completing his prayer that might have made him invincible. However, Ravana accepted his wife even after the incident and was not worried about what the world would think about her. There was no Agnipariksha for Mandodari.
This may earn him lots of fans from the modern day feminists, but a deeper reading of the epic will make them understand that while Ravana could charm any number of ladies to his bed, he was not above using force whenever he felt necessary.

Life philosophy
The Jabalists may argue that, in contrast, the materialistic Ravana lived his life in his own terms, ruled a huge empire, wallowed in luxury, stood by his wife when required and died a warrior’s death in his old age. The arguments the conventional society will offer them, like Rama’s life shows how one has to be steadfast in one’s Dharma irrespective of the consequences, will only invite their derision.
Justifications such as a better afterlife or the attainment of Moksha also will not have any meaning for Jabalists as they do not believe in the unknown. They will just point out the contrasting life and death of the Dharmic Rama as against that of the materialistic Ravana for supporting their argument.
The Jabalists may even say that, people may be worshipping Sri Rama as God, but they follow Ravana in practice. The mad rush towards the materialistic pleasure that marks the modern lifestyle shows that people have embraced Ravana’s life philosophy of enjoying life at any cost rather than the self- sacrificing Dharma of Rama.
Like so many Dasaras of the past three thousand years or more, Ravana will get burst into a million pieces in every street of India this Dasara too. The Asura king will be roaring with laughter at the irony of it, for he knows that despite the deification of his foe, it is his life philosophy that has finally won out among the people.
In ultimate reckoning, the great materialist philosopher has the last laugh, for he has achieved what the great avatars, prophets, saints, Mahatmas, Bodhisattvas and sons of God have collectively failed to achieve despite all their preaching  holy books, efforts and sacrifices since the dawn of civilisation. Going up in flames a million times over and over is a small price to pay for the universal practice, if not acceptance, of one’s life philosophy.


     Looks like a great mind who has great way of story telling . Ravana was Asura , we don't follow Ravana  but we do invest more time in materialistic things , it is tough to follow the righteousness of Rama but deep down we believe in it and we want to follow it.But it is difficult and since he implemented that all his life and  he is Purushottam  and he is the God and we are not. We are not following the philosophy of Asura but we are proving that following the right path of Dharma is tough ....really tough.
     This makes me think of my own life , where have I been and where am I right now.It's right to myself but not as per the so called guidelines of Dharma.As Indian woman is always expected to put the family first but sub consciously every woman wants to think about herself too but she is not allowed to.But the day a woman stands up for herself , all the good she has done goes down the flush and she is labeled as the most selfish woman on earth who doesn't understand love , relationships , emotions and Values.
   It's not wrong to find your happiness , and happiness is how we define it, it doesn't  have to be laughs and joy all the time.Sometimes you are happy to just to find yourself.You may not know what you want but you know what you don't want and that could the first step in knowing yourself.And it's never too late to take that first  step.


Happy Vijaya Dahami to all you great people out there.

Tuesday, 2 October 2012

Freedom



        When I let loose the reins of the past and moved ahead , stepped into a room with a sleepy head opening the door for me and letting me in without even knowing who I was, my life changed .Some how that place seemed untouched by the pollution and heat.The cool breeze of the morning and your reassuring voice by my side was the definition of  my Freedom and still holds good.My Heart beating really fast, panic and excitement both at the same time and a sense of liberation and your soothing voice by my side was  indeed an excellent taste of freedom .

      Sometimes I miss you , I feel bad when I say this when you trying your level best to be with me and yet I say , I miss you.In a very short span of time a lot has changed, you have changed ..I have changed  but the path which we had crossed together had given us beautiful memories.Good times , bad times sometimes they were worst and some are making it worst even now.

    I was amazed that you are still willing to fight , and that made me realize that sub consciously, I had lost the will to fight life.But then when I see you going through such a phase of life, you say that you don't have it in you to fight but your conscious wants you to fight , win and live.I just hope if I get atleast 10% of your courage, I will stop whining about life.

   I am an open book to myself and am not able to comprehend and conclude what exactly I am .I was telling a dear frend that the reason why we cry is that we know the problem and we know the solution , we just don't have the courage to step forward.I very proudly said that we need to create a motive , I created a motive stepped ahead and jumped out of one problem.Now I am clueless of what exactly I want.

    I have a very defined object of affection in my life , and yet my life is uncertain , not because of that object but because of me and remains of my past.Life appears to be running to fast and too slow at the same time.But one thing is sure that a part of me has partially reached to the destination  and some part of me  is still trying to figure out.

     I always knew what I wanted and yet I ended up where I never belonged.And now I don't know what I want but I certainly know what I don't want.I don't know where to go , but I know where not to go.Sometimes it's good to lie in the moment , and I am literally living in the moment.

      All I can say is , I love you and I had always respected and loved the way you have stood by me.I don't wanna loose you.I love you and you mean the world to me