Yes, I like things to be simple and certainly everyone does.It's not out of choice that I think of both sides of an argument.That's what I am , everything is personal and emotional for me and that's why my point of view looks complicated but it's not.Because for me life is all about love , friends are family.Lies scare me to death, they are like ghosts but we all have skeletons in our closets.
I need to meet people and make friends but I don't need to be emotionally attached to them, how is that possible..??People get married without even knowing if they love each other or not , without even knowing that they may fall out of love later, or there may be no chance for them fall in love at all.
My best frend asked why do I make things complicated.At this point of life I should be clear about what I think , or about how I see the world but I am not.I see people living under the same roof top who hate each other to the core.I see people living life together coz they have no other option.And this is nothing new, but it took me a while to see this.
It is really really difficult to believe that life is not always about love , you , your comfort zones , your needs , your choices , your likes or dislikes.The ones who are able to sustain life with a smile on their faces while all the odds of the life are standing right infront of them, are real survivors, fighters , warriors and those are the ones who always get a second chance in life.
I think and think and I think that reach nowhere by thinking and hence my frend says that I make things complicated.I wish things to be simple too.for me life was categorized in gud and bad ,or happy and sad , or white and black.I understands that everything doesn't have to be at extremes there are middle points.I have accepted that theoretically , have seen people choosing the middle points.It's just I haven't been able to implement that in " my life ".
It is going to be a slow process for me and I think I will be able to pull it out.May be with age I might actually accept it and implement it , And I am willing to give it a shot and try to make things simple.
When I let loose the reins of the past and moved ahead , stepped into a room with a sleepy head opening the door for me and letting me in without even knowing who I was, my life changed .Some how that place seemed untouched by the pollution and heat.The cool breeze of the morning and your reassuring voice by my side was the definition of my Freedom and still holds good.My Heart beating really fast, panic and excitement both at the same time and a sense of liberation and your soothing voice by my side was indeed an excellent taste of freedom .
Sometimes I miss you , I feel bad when I say this when you trying your level best to be with me and yet I say , I miss you.In a very short span of time a lot has changed, you have changed ..I have changed but the path which we had crossed together had given us beautiful memories.Good times , bad times sometimes they were worst and some are making it worst even now.
I was amazed that you are still willing to fight , and that made me realize that sub consciously, I had lost the will to fight life.But then when I see you going through such a phase of life, you say that you don't have it in you to fight but your conscious wants you to fight , win and live.I just hope if I get atleast 10% of your courage, I will stop whining about life.
I am an open book to myself and am not able to comprehend and conclude what exactly I am .I was telling a dear frend that the reason why we cry is that we know the problem and we know the solution , we just don't have the courage to step forward.I very proudly said that we need to create a motive , I created a motive stepped ahead and jumped out of one problem.Now I am clueless of what exactly I want.
I have a very defined object of affection in my life , and yet my life is uncertain , not because of that object but because of me and remains of my past.Life appears to be running to fast and too slow at the same time.But one thing is sure that a part of me has partially reached to the destination and some part of me is still trying to figure out.
I always knew what I wanted and yet I ended up where I never belonged.And now I don't know what I want but I certainly know what I don't want.I don't know where to go , but I know where not to go.Sometimes it's good to lie in the moment , and I am literally living in the moment.
All I can say is , I love you and I had always respected and loved the way you have stood by me.I don't wanna loose you.I love you and you mean the world to me
