Freedom

        When I let loose the reins of the past and moved ahead , stepped into a room with a sleepy head opening the door for me and letting me in without even knowing who I was, my life changed .Some how that place seemed untouched by the pollution and heat.The cool breeze of the morning and your reassuring voice by my side was the definition of  my Freedom and still holds good.My Heart beating really fast, panic and excitement both at the same time and a sense of liberation and your soothing voice by my side was  indeed an excellent taste of freedom .

      Sometimes I miss you , I feel bad when I say this when you trying your level best to be with me and yet I say , I miss you.In a very short span of time a lot has changed, you have changed ..I have changed  but the path which we had crossed together had given us beautiful memories.Good times , bad times sometimes they were worst and some are making it worst even now.

    I was amazed that you are still willing to fight , and that made me realize that sub consciously, I had lost the will to fight life.But then when I see you going through such a phase of life, you say that you don't have it in you to fight but your conscious wants you to fight , win and live.I just hope if I get atleast 10% of your courage, I will stop whining about life.

   I am an open book to myself and am not able to comprehend and conclude what exactly I am .I was telling a dear frend that the reason why we cry is that we know the problem and we know the solution , we just don't have the courage to step forward.I very proudly said that we need to create a motive , I created a motive stepped ahead and jumped out of one problem.Now I am clueless of what exactly I want.

    I have a very defined object of affection in my life , and yet my life is uncertain , not because of that object but because of me and remains of my past.Life appears to be running to fast and too slow at the same time.But one thing is sure that a part of me has partially reached to the destination  and some part of me  is still trying to figure out.

     I always knew what I wanted and yet I ended up where I never belonged.And now I don't know what I want but I certainly know what I don't want.I don't know where to go , but I know where not to go.Sometimes it's good to lie in the moment , and I am literally living in the moment.

      All I can say is , I love you and I had always respected and loved the way you have stood by me.I don't wanna loose you.I love you and you mean the world to me